"love is only a four letter word"

it's the way you used to tell me secrets. told me about how you've always hated yourself. and i cried because i've always loved you. the way you told me it will get better but it's been nine months since then and nothing has changed. and sometimes i wonder if it's ever going to change. sometimes i wonder if all this is ever going to be worth it. you told me it's always the darkest before dawn ,but what if sometimes the dawn never comes. what if we're wasting our time hoping. it's when we were standing in the school hallway and even when my entire world was falling apart you made me smile ,even just for a second ,and that was worth everything. and you have no idea how much you helped. no fucking idea. we're teenagers god damn it ,we still have so much to feel ,so much to learn. we can't waste our life away crying under the covers and getting lost in melodies ,we can't waste trying ,and that has to count for something. i just want you know i'll be okay. that we're all broken sometimes. we're all crooked and fragile and damaged and vulnerable and flawed and out of place and sometimes it's sort of beautiful. we're going to get our hearts broken and we're going to fuck up but i suppose that's what being a teenager is about. and you are going to see so many night skies and so many sunsets and you are going to fall in love over and over again and you are going to get hurt and you are going to grow up and i promes ,i fuckig promise ,you are going to learn to love yourself.